Discombobulated

A crazy little thing called LOVE

2012-02-16T00:11:00.001+08:00

Got lazy so didn't blog past few days :x

So, that crazy boy of mine surprised me on Valentine's Day! I'm so touched (';
First and best Valentine's!
I love him many lots! ^^ Thankyou baby!
☺ Not forgetting crush and darling! <3

I'm lucky to have him

2012-02-12T00:38:00.002+08:00

Had an awesome day!

Was performing @ SP for GYSS 25th anniversary. Not bad not bad! It turned out to be better thn I've thought. Just some sarcastic cheering from audiences, BAH, whatever! Thn went Clementi to have dinner with baby, crush, Ethan and Chelsea. Awesome day can! ^^ imma happy girl! Happygirl96 ! HEHE^^

2 more days till V day! <3

They can't take what's ours

2012-02-05T01:09:00.002+08:00

Blog blog blog.. Idk what else to blog anymore.
Nothing interesting happened, well, not much.

How I wish we can change our physics teacher. He sucks ttm, I hate him. I don't get a thing he teaches, I can kiss bbye to my science, furthermore an A result for O's. Sigh…
Anyway, Adam Lambert's "Better Than I Know Myself" music video is out!!! YAY! Super happy! I love Adam :x HEHE ^^ he looks damn cute and hawt, both good and bad side of him, in his MV! But he's old! He just celebrated his 30th birthday on 29 January! Old man ayeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Hahaha!

Okay enough of Adam Baby, later blur king jealous ;P

You take my breath away.

2012-02-03T00:05:00.001+08:00

I hate Thursdays can! ):
Hate it ttm >< So addicted to 'Hero', beautiful song ^^
"I can be your hero, baby"

Was rehearsing for our 11 Feb concert @ SP. I hope I'm not wrong bout the venue, keep mixing polys up.. Oh whatever. Like so embarrassing okay! Really felt like digging a hole and hide my face while singing. I feel so retarded doing those funny actions, ugh.
So went back home after choir and took the notes for Nouni. Met up with baby while waiting for her ^^ I'm so touched that he came! HEHE ^^ honest, i was very delighted when I saw him!

Alright, I can't think well now, mental block in the middle of the night. Shall blog some other days, Gudnight! x

Love you more thn I can say ♥

2012-01-31T00:24:00.001+08:00

30 January, the day I would never expect it to happen ☺ Loveyou much baby! ♥

Harmony

2012-01-25T01:48:00.001+08:00

<3, Slow and steady wins the race. Hope you get what I mean! (: hehe..

Sooooooo, it's CHINESE NEW YEAR YO! AngPowssssss! Okay, totally wrong conception of CNY.
I love CNY! The only time where all my relative would gather around and bond/celebrate as a whole! I love it when everyone laugh over some stupid jokes, honest, it's plan stupid jokes. How sweet right? ^^ it's a lot better thn the sound of those quarrels and fights, detest it a lot, plus noise pollution, ugh.
家和万事兴, harmony! The best thing that could ever happen to any family! ^^~

Alright, time for bed! It's 1.50am now, I gotta give <3 a morning call tomorrow! (;

If only if only(s) came true

2012-01-21T23:29:00.001+08:00

Was in town for almost a day :D

Went Cineleisure to catch a movie, thn Marina Bay Sands to buy GongCha, thn Bugis for dinner. Went to Kovan and strolled back to my house, like yesterday (:
So practically, my day was like this : Orchard →Somerset →Marina Bay →Bugis →Kovan →Serangoon !
When I came home I realized that I had forgotten to return blur king's jacket, hahaha! I'm gonna throw it away! :P
Enjoyed my day pretty much, more to come yea? ^^

So much for happy endings

2012-01-17T23:57:00.001+08:00

For the past few hours, I've been thinking, what if I'm not born, how great will others life be?

I just know that the life of 2 most important person to me will be very different, in a much more better way ofcourse. They will be so much happier, so so so much happier…
& I can confirm that all my friends now will be happier without me, I'm such a horrible person can? Im always giving lousy advices and sometimes the wrong ones.. The presence of me is so wrong, I shouldn't even be here in the first place.
If I wasn't born, they will be able to find a happier someone for them.. It's terrible y'know, that kind of feelings? I couldn't accept the fact that he actually did what he once said he wouldn't.. Promises aren't meant to be broken, are they?

Trust is like a mirror

2012-01-15T02:40:00.001+08:00

Current post will be a little draggy, so dont mind please! Though it's over, I'm still gonna blog bout it. Friday the 13th!

Okay, so we had some level talk that is totally B.O.R.I.N.G. It's more of a parental talk though, we're like for display only. So earlier that day, I was suppose to collect some books from someone. And guess what? He ditched me last minute. Some friend right? Hmph. Somemore it's a promise! Super angry for the whole day, in the end didn't enjoy my Running Man.. So I met up with crush after her tuition in Toa Payoh, thn we went to amk to gai gai~
After the level talk, we went to j8 with someone, I've forgotten his name.. We waited for Krystal as I need to go to her house to meetup with my parents.
Soooooooooo, crush went back home, Krystal and I had a H2H talk. Kena bullied by a 3 years old little boy! Xiasuey much..
After meeting up with my parents, thn I know something happened to my cousin.. Sigh, he's like only 8 years old! That horrible illness, if I would to call it, 'haunted' him since last year, it caused him to repeat Primary 1 as he was hospitalized for almost half a year. I really hope he would be alright ASAP!! May god, Jade emperor, Muhammad Ali, and many more bless you! (:

Spongebob Squarepants!!

2012-01-13T00:04:00.001+08:00

I'm so happy! I customized my sims character similar to Adam Lambert style! Hehe..!
I should try David Archuleta's style some time, when my sims have a son bah. Hahahaha! Okay, Gudnight! x

Page 10 of 366 : Screwed up day

2012-01-10T19:02:00.004+08:00

How worst can this day go? All my feelings are jumbled up. I raelly hate the current feelings I'm having now, both of them! This is so nerve wreaking... UGH. HATE IT TTFM!
Should I give it a try again? People do change right? Or rather a leopard never changes its spots?

'Never expect. Never assume. Never ask. And never demand. Just let it be. If it's meant to be, it will happen.' @OurTeenFacts

Elevator buttons in morning air.

2012-01-07T07:38:00.001+08:00

Since I'm waiting for Bus 58, shall blog awhile (:
Yesterday wasn't my day.. Getting scolded all the way especially that PMS dude, IDGAF, what's wrong with him? Confirm 更年期 already, BTH!!!

Bus 58 is super long! Should have board Bus 105 just now! Ugh..

Ajuushi

2012-01-07T02:24:00.001+08:00

Thought for a pretty long time. I'm just hurting myself.. Bah~

Random title anyway.

Welcome to my life

2012-01-05T00:59:00.001+08:00

My life is plain and dull, thus, i don't know what to blog about anymore.
Anyway, school sucks, I prefer sleeping at home! Bye.

Forever and always is just a lie

2012-01-02T03:46:00.001+08:00

I'm trying to ton right now but gonna KO soon. If not I won't be able to sleep tomorrow.. Sigh, torture.

Spamming songs right now. And and and, 'Lovey Dovey' is releasing soon @ 3pm!! Super excited for it's MV!
Wonder how would it be like when school reopens. I never even touch a single holiday work, good or what? Hoho.. Got to buck up! No pain no gain (:
Flashbacks are rewinding itself, ugh.. NEED TO STOP EM!

Cool right?!

End of the world, 2012

2012-01-01T04:11:00.001+08:00

First post of 2012!

Was at Malaysia, again, BBQ-ing. Honestly I don't like going Malaysia, I prefer staying in Singapore regardless of festival or not. No place sweeter thn home (;
LOL, I'm just crapping. I just hate to travel around, tiring much.

As for 2012,
I'm gonna leave all unhappiness behind, regardless of relationships, friendship issues, family problems and so on. 2011 will remain as 2011. 2012 will be a new start, I need to prepare for my 'O's, bored much but still no choice.
Don't think there will be relationship issue for me this year around. Relationship are just purely bothersome. They give you much nonsense and crap as they wish to. Single FTW (; no need to huanlo anything!

Promises arent meant to be broken

2011-12-29T04:43:00.001+08:00

Alright! WTH can? He's back already!
I really dont want to see him! I BTH his attitude, ugh. The way I reply him super dao :/ oh whatever!

Alright, since yesterday, I've been laughing out loud upon seeing some stupid tweets. Like an Ew ! So mushy can? Erxin prrriest.
It'll make no sense if you were to read their individual tweets. But if you were to read their tweets together, you'll be laughing like a mad!
Ew Ew Ew Ew Ew! My must be having some mental illness that point of moment, like seriously, Ew, why him?!

Okay, enough of crapping, too much already.

Delete

2011-12-27T02:28:00.001+08:00

I don't get it okay.. When I'm about to decide on giving it another go, you'll always just throw me aside and go MIA. Ugh… fine, if so, don't bother giving any more tries cause my answer will always be the same.
Why am I so fucked up?

Merry Christmas!

2011-12-25T03:19:00.001+08:00

It's Christmas! (:
& I've got no present :x

Was at Malaysia BBQ-ing, watched Running Man. I totally love episode 59! Touching (';
He must be the last guy on earth to be that sweet and caring! Where in the world can you find another one like this?!
& I saw something that made me furious! Ugh! How can they delay! Seriously c'mon! Delay till 2 January! Wlao, I wanna watch 'Lovey Dovey' MV leh! Tsk.

Alright, I wanna sleep already, need to charge energy. Gudnight!
& crush, I'm gonna find a new one for you, xoxo

Me sho 2pig

2011-12-24T06:28:00.001+08:00

Heyyo! It's Christmas Eve! YAY!
I'm so into T-ara's 'Cry Cry' MV, they're gonna release 'Lovey Dovey' MV today!! Yay! Super excited can! ^^
Gonna celebrate Christmas in Malaysia, BBQ! ^^ happyhappy!!

Actually, not that happy at all. I feel like crying now, IDGAF myself. Out of no reasons, I feel like crying. How random? (;
Well, I shall not cry. Not a good time to cry since it's Christmas eve! Hehe…
Alright, I'm going turn in now, Gudnight !

Whatever

2011-12-23T03:44:00.001+08:00

I suspect I've some heart problem… sigh, my chest feels heavy once in awhile for no reasons )':
I don't feel pain at all, oh gosh.
I'm so afraid…
Maybe I'm thinking too much..

McDonald's & not Macdonald's

2011-12-21T03:01:00.002+08:00

Back blogging! Gonna sleep after this (;
Crush is back from Thailand! Yay! ^^ Miss her so much!! ^^

So apparently, my body clock had decided that I will always wake up after 2pm no matter what time I sleep, great.
Had McDonald's for lunch. And I realized that McDonald's had only an 'A', stupid right? Why did people call it 'Mac' when it's called 'McDonald's' and not 'MacDonald's'?
So after lunch, bought some groceries etc blahblahblah.. Came back home. Nothing special. That life yea..
I really need to get those holiday homework done, ugh.. Anyone willing to do it for me? Teehee...! Alright, Gudnight! Time for my Lalaland! ^3^

Theodore, just too cute!

2011-12-19T02:27:00.001+08:00

I don't know what's up with me today. I don't feel right… I don't even feel like communicating with people right now. Bah..
Been watching Running Man for the past few hours, I totally hate episode 23, I don't like that comedian, super rude!
Yupp, everything will be okay from today onwards (: I need to change my habit of sleeping after 3am.
Gudnight!

Oops, I did it again…!

2011-12-17T04:26:00.001+08:00

Had been searching for 'Running Man' on iPhone for hours and there isn't any! How can this be happening! I'll be ranting once again, so don't bother reading alright?

I don't get people today, when I send them a text, they don't seem to get my point. They're always answering some other weird things. Issit the way I type is not clear enough or are they having illusions? Seriously, BTH.

Speaking of which reminds me of him… ugh, I really don't wish to see him at all, I'm irritated by his actions, the way he act, especially the way he speaks! How old already, seriously. It's been a year since and honestly, I don't wish to go out with our old clique when he's back to Singapore, I mean, after receiving the letter he gave me, the first thing that came into my mind was to tear it away. Kind of cruel yea? But to me it's annoying. Though it may be a sweet thing to other but absolutely not to me. I can't accept the fact that he actually told someone to ask me that question. I mean, wtf? How could you? He's just plain annoying.

I shall just find an excuse to not attend it, cool?

终于说出口

2011-12-15T04:54:00.001+08:00

How cool is my title?
意思浅浅，你明白的。
End of post.

Someone Like You

2011-12-13T03:17:00.001+08:00

Okay, my 'blog everyday' plan had failed, sorry.
I think I'm getting too paranoid… maybe there's a reason to it, oh well…
I don't get a fuck. How can someone in this world reply your text one day later?! I mean, don't we all check our phone like 2 time per minute, or issit just me? Seriously BTH leh, phone for display only, might as well don't get one. One text per day ._. Ugh…

It's been pretty long since I've done this. Probably a year since?
LOL, okay, 'My type of guy' :3
Actually, i don't really have a type, I just want someone like him, to cherish, to care and love me well. Someone who isn't afraid to tell everyone that I'm his girlf, that's all. Is that really hard to find one that meets these requirement?
Okay, next, '5 Facts about me'

Fact #1 : I'll giggle whenever I do handshakes ;
Fact #2 : I'm not those morning type of person, I'll get pissed no matter whoever you are if you wake me up from my lalaland, guaranty scoldings from me ;
Fact #3 : If you were to know me well, you will realize I seldom use SMS languages ;
Fact #4 : I'm able to bake marvelous muffins, probably good cooking skills too? ;
Fact #5 : I love putting smileys behind my text cause I'm a cheerful bastard (;
Haha, ikr, I'm weird, especially #1!
I'm gonna look for more similar survey-like to blog with. How fun!

Numbness

2011-12-11T03:03:00.001+08:00

Okay. I wanna apologise again ):
Im sorry doggie... I didn't mean to throw my temper again. I wasn't in a good mood. Something fucked up happened. Really really am sorry...

Just ate cup noodles. Super full. Surprised call earlier on, how sweet of him! Still considering if I want to go for the session tomorrow, or rather later on.
Feeling so numb right now.

Have fun :D

2011-12-03T16:40:00.003+08:00

Shall CHILLAX & enjoy my holiday at Taiwan!
Heck care them! No cheena's gonna ruin my holiday! ^-^
A doggie's promise hehe ^^

Fuck you

2011-12-03T08:09:00.001+08:00

Honestly, I hate cheenas. Really no offense but they have left me bad impressions.
Knn, just now lie to my brother say use awhile comp in the end become like his y'know. Fucked up attitude.
While having breakfast, two cheena woman just sit at our table without asking. Fucking auto. DAMN AUTO. Like their house leh. Two of their friends were sitting at the other table, two of them only. Don't know they scared of boredom or what, loner? They prefer sitting with us. Puh-lehs. Would you prefer sitting with people you know or some fucking strangers? Ugh. Bunch of cb people. Fuck. Spoil my holiday.

Duplicate

2011-12-02T00:16:00.001+08:00

I'm currently at Taiwan now (; haha! How I wish the temperature in Singapore would be like how issit in Taiwan now, super chilling.

Okay, talk about my trip just now. I saw one of our tour member, seriously, he looked like HIM. Wtf. Somemore I think he's damn annoying. Perfect Singlish. PERFECT. He keep saying "I think people are over reacting" & I totally think that he is that one that's over reacting. OMFG.
Alright, I'm sleeping after this show. Night night~~

Internet access

2011-11-30T08:38:00.001+08:00

Hoho! I'm going Taiwan really soon! Hehehe...! 2 more hours!
Okay do, I'm currently at Terminal 1, in the toilet waiting~~ lol -.-
I had no sleep, how great. Gonna sleep on the airplane. I will try to tweet or blog if I'm able to find WIFI there. Doggie will help me to update both of them while I'm not around. Haha. So if you see any ridiculous tweets or blog please please please know that is my stupid doggie that did it. Miss you all ^^
Anyway, will my phone get jet lag too? trollolloll.

And just in case I can't get Internet access there,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRUSH! Woohoo! In advance ofcourse ^^ muacks! Love you!
My present to you! ^^ hehe..

Hatred

2011-11-29T05:39:00.001+08:00

To think that we actually can be friends. I'm really too dumb. I'm only 'there' when you're bored etc. After all, as always, I'm a substitute (: hah. I should have know it long ago right? I should be used to it, why am I still so worked up? Okay, end of this nonsense from this moment onwards. I promise (:

Time check : 5.31am
How cool is it? Ton queen (;
The day before I slept at 7am.
Yesterday at 6.15am
And today? Idk. Hahaha.
My body clock totally screwed. All thanks to maple. Hahaha! I'm addicted once again. How lame am I? (:
1 more day till Taiwan trip! Weeee~! Super excited now. ROFL. Hahaha.
I realized I've major mood swing, or split personality. How cute ^^ hehe..!

Criticize me, hate me, scold me all you want now. I'm in a mood to take all these negative comments now. C'mon! This may be your last chance to do so x.x

Time machine

2011-11-28T05:14:00.001+08:00

Can you believe it? I actually backspaced all of the things I was about to post. Rather stupid. Who doesn't change as time goes?
All I want to say that I'm not ready to face any of the changes when I'm back from Taiwan. It's too much for me.

Do you know it hurts when you give me that text? Idk what else to say but wish you the best as well…
Some things ain't meant to be said hurh?
It's best to leave the way it is now.

Hello, let's be friends

2011-11-27T04:50:00.002+08:00

#nowplaying : Ugly - 2NE1

Haha, bacckkkk! Here to blog, obviously? (:
Alright, kind of surprise today, gotten an unexpectable text from someone. Isn't it much more better like this? I feel much more happier, much much more… teehee…! Ohh well. It's good to have another friend (;
Was watching '13', super now show though it's kind of cruel.. Thn I received a call, I thought it was from sissy thus I ignored it ^^ I didn't do it on purpose! Well, I did but the show was at its climax! Cannot don't watch! ): in the end wasn't from sissy, hehe...! Hmm, it's good that I 'ignored' it but, doesn't matter. Haha…
I feel like crying now, wtf. What's wrong with me? Fucking hate this feeling… I'm already over with him and that's it. Fuck.

&
dear brain,
Would you kindly stop thinking of ridiculous things over and over again? I'm really glad if you do, thankyou.

Crush,
._. That's a must to promise! Idc! You can never ever ever break this promise! (: hehe...

Doggie,
Sorry luhh! Never meant to call you a baka :x my fault okay? I never press send :/ treat you ice-cream next time ^^

Sissy,
I understand what you mean and everything (: don't worry much. Everything will be alright.

Okay, I'm lame, bbye~~

#nowplaying : Turning Tables - Adele

Purely Friendship

2011-11-26T05:19:00.001+08:00

Edited yesterday's post, it's so stupid.

Watched Breaking Dawn earlier on and it was kinda good ^^ I like their story but hate those kissing scenes. Too many, BTH! Hahaha!
And I'm kind of disgusted by a show i watched just now while playing maple... 'Jennifer's body' disgusting ttfm can! So bloody... And I didn't realize Megan Fox was acting as Jennifer until the credits :/ Trololo.
I hate my brain, keep on thinking about those unrealistic things.
I want to recommend 2 songs, 'Everytime - Britney Spears' & 'The one That Got Away -Katy Perry'. 'Everytime' is truly a beautiful song though it's old, I love it! ♥ 'The one that got away', idk why but I'm totally attracted by it. I'm totally obsessed with both songs. Hehe...!
Going Taiwan really soon! Should be excited but I'm not. Missing someone? Probably not. Idk, IDGAF to my relationship thoughts anymore.
Being single isn't that bad at all. Unlike someone who's that fucking despo for a stead every single time after breakup. Heh.

Welcome to my silly life

2011-11-25T04:20:00.001+08:00

Okay, readers, you can ignore today's post. It's totally nonsense… honestly.

#nowplaying : b-e-a-utiful - Megan Nicole

[EDITED]

I got emotional over three words, "Beyond The Pain". I almost cried, IDGAF myself too. Just by looking at these three pathetic words, I teared. How silly.
Watching 'Twiligh Saga : Breaking Dawn Part 1' tomorrow! #eggcited! Hehe…! Really looking very forward! (;

A little paragraph for my dearest crush ♥ :
Crush! What you're doing isn't an ideal thing to do right now. Talk to people, probably in your comfort zone, you'll feel much more better, really. Everyone is here for you, remember! 9 numbers away, and I'm reachable! ^^ I promise to celebrate your birthday after I come back from Taiwan okay! ^^ I want you to have a memorable birthday, different from all previous years! ^^ hehe...! Love you maximum ♥ cheerup :D

#Fact about me : I love listening to Avril Lavigne's songs when I get emotional or sad. (sometimes out of boredom) Most of her songs speaks a lot bout what I'm going through or had gone through (similar) (:

I don't wanna challenge my heart,~~of how strong I feel for you…~~

ADAM LAMBERT ♥

2011-11-22T04:50:00.002+08:00

As Darling ♥ & I have agreed on, our next blog post will be on Adam Lambert! YAY! Okay, honestly, idc he's a gay or whatsoever. Everyone have their own life. Whenever I tell someone I like him, they will be like "Eeyer, he's a gay leh!" I admire him, the way he sing especially! Keke ^^ See that first photo? He look a lot like Joe Jonas! Really! I knew him through radio, FM 91.3 if I'm not wrong, 'If I had You'. I remember it was examination period, I was half dead living creature there studying... I was totally obsessed with that song till 'Whataya Want From Me' was introduced to me ^^ Totally love these songs! & his songs, are lullaby to me. Whenever i can't sleep, I'll just plug in my earpiece and play his songs, & I'm asleep~~~ Hehe.. ^^

Alright, how can I abandon my David Archuleta?! A photo of him for you guys to admire ^^ Enjoy~

I can never learn how to wink.

Tradegy

2011-11-19T23:47:00.002+08:00

Know what? I'm tired of everything alright? I hate how people take me as an idiot, thinking I'm dumb or whatsoever. Do I look dumb to you people? Honestly. Why can you people lie straight in my face. STRAIGHT IN MY FACE. Thinking I don't know anything and whatsoever. Well, sorry to disappoint you yea, I fucking know every single thing. You're that dumbass who think that I don't. Fuck you. I'm disappointed, really. Getting lied to over and over again. Treating me as substitute, as a dumb. 2 of you, really, am I an idiot?
D, every single time, I swear, every single time. Since Sec 2, didn't you know I've already knew bout this? I've thought you ended off with her, clear cut, yet I'm wrong. I should have did something earlier on. Really, I couldn't forgive you... I just pray for the best now. Nothing of it will happen...

How funny when you ask a question & stops half way.

2011-11-19T05:01:00.002+08:00

#nowplaying : When You're Gone - Avril Lavinge
Back to update (:
Time check : 5.01AM

Okay, sorry for not updating these few days. Kind of busy yea. Was busy preparing for Choir Camp... Kind of a success though! Happygirl ^^
Okay so this is choir camp 2011! YAY! Not as sianz as I had thought. Really, it was fun! "Step game" was a success ^^ & Amazing race was kinda a failure yea... Oh well, nothing in life is smooth... Sigh, oh well... & for 2 entire days, i slept for 3 hours? Oh wtf, when i came back home, drop dead. Sleep immediately for 17 hours. Pig or what? :P I'm really glad that choir camp was wonderful & it really did brought many smiles to juniors (; Love you peepz many! Especially the gossip session, OMGawd. Wonderful, knew many funny; gross; unbelievable 'tales & stories'! HAHA, really wonderful.. (;
I need to apologise to someone ><" literally ignored all everyone! Didn't manage to reply all text or I've forgotten. STM, PS. So if i didn't reply your message, please send another else I'll thought I've replied or you didn't text me. (:

Okay, tryin' to sleep now. Goodnights & Goodmorning~

11:11 You're a liar

2011-11-14T03:38:00.002+08:00

#nowplaying : Little Bad Girl - David Guetta ft. Taio Cruz & Ludacris

Here to update :D crush told me something damn hilarious earlier on. Seriously? I literally laughed off my head!! Joke of the 11-11-11 11:11! Hahaha! OMGawd! Okay, back to normal.
Am I like weird? Someone said that I'm always doing crazy stuff that worry people… O.o & I received this too..

"Sometimes weird. Sometimes funny. Sometimes cute. Sometimes idk. Sometimes curious. Sometimes forgetful?
Sometimes happy.
Sometimes sad
Sometimes crazy
Sometimes hyper
Sometimes hungry.
Sometimes sad
Still got a lot of sometimes."

Okay, I'm super weird. Anyway, bro uhh bro! Idk if you'll read this post of mine, well idc.
First breakup, first heartbreak, no fear! You've us aye? (; as what my crush said, "brother & sister priority!" do look for us if you need to have a little chat or something ^^ don't play 'isolation' like me hurh… NOT COOL! Well, don't avoid the reality, that's what I must notify. Accept the fact, don't escape from it, strife for the better ^^ I'm sure you'll get someone much more better in the future! :D Uhm, cry if you really must :/ 哭过就好，跌倒就要爬起来!
Okay luhh, don't know if my words will help you feel slightly better? Hehe…! I can't sleep early recently, it's already a habit, fuck that.
Oh well,
iloveyou Mummy *\(^o^)/*
iloveyou Daddy *\(^o^)/*
iloveyou Trina *\(^o^)/*
iloveyou Marcus *\(^o^)/*
iloveyou Crush *\(^o^)/*
iloveyou Darling *\(^o^)/*
Iloveyou Readers *\(^o^)/*

#nowplaying : Whataya Want From Me

Joker

2011-11-12T12:14:00.001+08:00

Fuck it. I hate it whenever people interrupt my sleep. Eyelid is swollen, pain like fuck. Fucked up day. Just wokeup thn give me this kind of crap. Pffft…

Insecurities

2011-11-11T02:16:00.001+08:00

Firstly, I want to apologize… I'm really not myself these few days. Idk why…
Whenever I thought of what really happened, I can't help but tear… i feel so helpless..

Sometimes I feel so cheated, like I'm been used. What my mom said is true, I trust friends too easily, and I'm like a puppet to them. What can I say? I'm afraid of being lonely, I hate loneliness… I truly hate it. I don't get it why people say that I'm sociable, I'm not okay? The only people I hang out with are just those who are close to me.. Why? I don't know, really. The thing I hope the most is someone who is able to call me now, console me… I'm tired of tearing, tired of all these messed up feelings. I don't want anything of this! I hate life alright! But guess what? I just have to tolerate all these fucking nonsense life's giving me. I've been pushing away all meet-ups and going-out, I don't know how to face anyone now. Honestly speaking, I'm not happy at all, I was never. Never ever. Since Sec 2, life's tough, it's miserable. I can't get back the happy-go-lucky attitude, I've lost it long ago. You know that fake smile? Yea, that's how I'm feeling now.
I hate what I know. I hate what I know. I hate what I know!!! Why me? Why?? Why must you do this..? I get no fuck. Aren't we all happy from the beginning? I fucking hate that bitch alright? If ever, I swear, if ever that bitch or you do things that's going through my mind now, you're gonna lose me, once and for all okay? No, in fact, everyone's gonna lose me, I won't be back to either of you.

Don't mind me readers, you won't understand. Anyway, happy 11-11-11~ May all of you be happy Forever and Always.

Dear John

2011-11-08T23:36:00.003+08:00

I think I'm really being an idiot.

It seems so like a dream y'know. I thought of the past, it's like, wow? What in the world am I thinking?! & i can't believe that I was together with him before yea... Surprise surprise~! Hehe... I'm missing those feelings badly, really...

Alright, somethings terribly not right with me. I know... Who cares, I'm not someone important or whatsoever. Please think & dream of me tonight. Do miss me kay? (; Toodles!

P.S. My post's title is name of a movie.

Thanks for loving me Cause you're doing it perfectly

2011-11-08T01:49:00.002+08:00

Fever

Whataya Want From Me

Zero Gravity

A Little Too Not Over You

Stop Standing There

Glad You Came

Rain Over Me

Just In Love

HummingBird Heartbeat

Forever and Always

Alright, 10 songs in total. Those who know me MUST know these songs okay! These are some of my favourite songs, in no particular order. IT A MUST! I'll test you people any moment from now alright? Did i mention that Adam Lambert is now one of my favourites too? Yea, i like both David Archuleta & Adam Lambert, that's an obvious. Okay, i'm being pretty lame. So bored~ I can't sleep~ Lalalalala~ Shall watch a movie. Ta-Ta!

Fever

2011-11-06T06:10:00.001+08:00

It's like 6am now!
Okay, was watching plenty of videos on Adam Lambert ♥ really can't take it ><" I'm like so obsessed with him, hehe..! & that doggie of mine keeps on calling him "Adam Lamb Chop". Gonna screw him (:

Orhkay~ wo ke kun le hor! Wan an~

I just want your love

2011-11-03T23:12:00.001+08:00

I had been streaming YouTube these few hours and I'm totally attracted to Adam Lambert! He is like so hawt can!! I love his grin (; oops, okay... IDC if he's a gay or a straight, I just love it! Hahaha! I mean like seriously! Hehehe..! Alright, shall not go on any further, ^^

I totally love his songs, "Whataya want from me" & "If I had you" ! Like seriously can, so nice! Keep on repeating them (: sweet~

Alright, I shall try to sleep now (: may reborn my hair tomorrow, maybe.. Okay luhh, sayonara adieu! (;

Love me or leave

2011-11-03T00:44:00.001+08:00

Saw someone's photo, like a retarded.
Been pissed off by little things, really… ugh…
My 'O' Chinese will be like 7 days away? Yea, around there. Been dozing off to Lalaland during Headstart, boring much..

& really, I can't stop thinking about those incidents...
I miss those times and feelings )': I want them back!!! I want those moments back.. Those moments where my laughter with that special someone isn't fake or forced.

I saw someone's blog, well it was posted like last year or so.. Her boyf actually ran all the way to her house at late night just to comfort her y'know! Just to comfort his girlf who was crying despite having less thn an hour of sleep... What I'm tryin to infer is that, where in the world would you find such a guy?! I mean, nowadays majority of the guys, not meaning all of them, are total jerks y'know. Just go around breaking hearts. Even if they are serious in the relationship, they might not even give much damn to a girl's feeling, moreover running to his girlf's house JUST to comfort her!

Read an article from Facebook, 十二星座宝宝, I love their things much! Quite true for a Pisces like me yea. Go look for the article '你是爱我还是需要我？'& I love this quote very very much :
不成熟的愛是--< 因為我需要你 , 所以我愛你 ----
而成熟的愛是--< 因為我愛你 , 所以我需要你 ----
If I would to translate this it would be :
An immature love -- I love you because I need you ;
True love-- I need you because I love you

You guys see the difference? That's really the 'definition' of L O V E , from my point of view! Many people have been abusing it either given to or by someone.
如果你真心爱他的话，你会不顾一切的自动找他，而不是叫他来找你。这是看我们自己愿意为对方付出的自由意志。Translate yourself of you don't understand~

So... What kind of love are you giving to him/her right now?

Wouldn't change a thing

2011-11-01T01:03:00.002+08:00

Hmm… I feel weird, really. I can't understand what am I feeling now… ugh..

I mean it's like, okay~ it's normal for someone to stand close to another while teaching them how to play pool but, it's frigging weird to me! He's blardy standing so close, WTF! I agree that he had changed a lot, for the better ofcourse… but, it's hard to be friends with someone whom you hate a lot right, isn't it? He really changed so much… I actually enjoyed talking with him, wtf is wrong with me? Ew.

Alright, who am I kidding? In conclusion, I still hate him (:

Jet Lag

2011-10-29T02:17:00.001+08:00

Eye infection thanks to my contact lens, was suppose to sleep earlier, oh well…
Can throw my phone away already! Been working on my iPhone for hours, didn't manage to reply texts ASAP, sorry…
Got my report book back today, I'm super happy! Made improvement as compared to MYE, passed all subject except for science, 39% F9. LOL. Will take a photo tomorrow and upload it (: will be typing something out for someone in the next paragraph.

Boy,
Seriously you're mean. TBH, I do hate you. Remember that when we end off, you told me not to be affected in my exams because of it. You thn called me days later, asking how am I blah blah. Well, you don't trust that I didn't get affected at all. Honestly speaking, I didn't even cry a single tear out. Idk why either, hah. In fact, I must thank you. I got more time to focus on my weak subjects and need not even worry for any shyt happening like before, really. Thanks for those lil' happy moments. Hope you last well with her.

Zero gravity

2011-10-28T01:53:00.001+08:00

Pig much today. Sleeping the entire day like nobody's business..
Just transferred songs, I'm loving em~ ^^ nothing much to talk bout. Didn't play comp or anime much tonight. Really glad that I've a text buddy currently, haha. B.O.R.ED ttm can at night! Okay, time to oink already. Nights~

#nowplaying : Zero Gravity - David Archuleta
Nothing brings me down When you're around It's like zero gravity The world just disappear When you're here Like zero gravity

So much for my happy ending

2011-10-27T02:20:00.001+08:00

Just finish watching 'Alpha and Omega' , almost cried… silly :x I hardly cry for any movies so.. Yea..
Alright, know what? I can't think now, really. After this movie, my mind went blank. Idk why! UGH! I hate it when two lovers meant for each other are separated due to family reasons blah blah and whatsoever stupid reasons. Like seriously, wtf is this! If you really like each other or something go for it, don't lose that chance and let some other morons get that chance! We don't always get second chances, well we never can. Treat every chance we have the last, you'll never know.
Okay, something's really wrong with me! Why am I so worked up over a movie..? Gotta chill… but thn, the couple got together (: happy ending~ Happygirl ^^ hehe…
Readers, am I really going mad or something..? Any antidote..?
Okay, time for bed.. If I continue sleeping at these hour, I can be an owl already… I'll try to sleep early from tomorrow on ^^ & I'll try to bake my muffins again ASAP! Wanna have some? (:

Love is such a sweet illusion

2011-10-26T01:38:00.001+08:00

Alright! Just installed the blogger app. Didn't know there's such app. ROFL. At least I'm able to upload photos without using computer (:

SEP today, inline skating @ pasir ris park… Our school damn bias! We've been doing bowling, archery and inline skating for these years. And none of those were chose by our cohort, seriously… sec 2 gotta chance to play dragon boat okay! First water activity that school allow for SEP if I'm not wrong..
The gears were smells heavenly (: haha! Fell down once, embarrassed much. Well, enjoyed lots fun and laughter there! ^^

Alright, now! I gotta think of something, like a plan or an idea? & somehow what I've said today happens, uhm… yea, I'll do it… probably, hehe…!

Whataya want from me?

2011-10-25T02:35:00.002+08:00

I really don't know what to blog about…
Oh well, let's learn a song shall we? ^^ it's my new favorite! (;

*Whataya want from me*

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah I'm afraid whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
When I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn't give a damn
But now, here we are so whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it's plain to see (plain to see)
that baby you're beautiful
And there's nothing wrong with you
(nothing wrong with you)
It's me, I'm a freak (yeah)
but thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly
(it perfectly)

There might have been a time
When I would let you slip away
I wouldn't even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep comin around
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)

Just don't give up on me
(uuuuuuh) I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down

(So hey) just don't give up
I'm workin it out
Please don't give in,
I won't let you down
It messed me up (It messed me up)
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in, i won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me
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I find him hawt, really. :x
I found out that some gays are hawt. Not saying I fall for them or what! Everyone have their own life so we can't criticize them or whatsoever!
& hawt guys are either taken or gays, Tsk.
Hmm… but i'm glad that David Archuleta is straight! ^^ yay! May I be his girlf! :3 okay, who am I kidding seriously. I'm just jokingggggg!!

Another session of cam-whoring

2011-10-24T03:31:00.000+08:00

EDITED

Alright, here to add on some photos. It's 3.27 and i can't sleep! Ugh...
Can someone like call me chat if you see this NOW. Dying of boredom already! C'mon! May a mircale happen! ><"
Nevermind, i think i shall sleep now. My panda eyes are getting worst...

Today I caught myself smiling for no reason... then I realized I was thinking about you

2011-10-24T00:29:00.006+08:00

Sorry for those fugly photos of mine. But I likeeeeeeeee (; I am who I am, no point trying hiding that 'unique' side of me! & notice the pyjamas I'm wearing? I dug it out of my closet just now, hehe... It's my primary school pyjamas, and guess what, it stills fit perfectly on me! Did I even grow?! Was suppose to blog earlier on but ended up otp, an hour plus, oh my... & that person got that rare chance to listen to my singing! Blah.
I'm now trying to put up a shoutbox, but failed. Oh well, shall try again tomorrow ^^
Orhkay, my mama nagging already, shall off comp. Nights! (;
Anyway, my title for this post is a crap. It's just something that someone told me long ago.

Me-mo-ri-es

2011-10-21T01:52:00.003+08:00

I cant sleep…
Think I'm kind of those type of personality that loves winning, but I always don't. Irony.

Pactically slept for the whole day. Pig much, seriously. Kind of disappointed in my POA result, careless mistake all over! Ugh… however, this exam wasn't a disappointment (: I passed everything except for sciences & SS, with geog, I would pass my humanities already. Proud like a peacock, LOL. This idiom was learnt in primary 1? Hmm, I didn't even use a single idiom in both my languages compo hahaha!
Was thinking again just now, I still can't accept the fact :/ i never thought that I'll be taken as a substitue. Oh well oh well… anyway, I can feel my hair standing this whole day.. I mean like, why is that person so observant?! Ew…!! It really creep the hell out of me. Imagine that someone is observing you from far, OMGawd… ugh..
I wanna go reborn plus dye my hair!!! ):

Imma happy lil' girl

2011-10-20T02:22:00.002+08:00

Honestly speaking, Imma happy lil' girl! ^^ I passed my language paper, F&N and E-Math. How awesome it is?! Yay!!
Never thought I could pass HCL & E-Math. Fantastic year! Weehee~! well, as expected, failed both chemistry and physics, oh well… idc, really. Will be knowing humanities & Poa result tomorrow or practically later on. Excited can! Was so worried about English but thn I didn't disappoint myself & my parents! ^^ I feel so proud of myself. Haha, seem stupid aye? Being so proud of myself even though mostly are borderline passes. Uhm, idc, I likeeeeeeeeeeee! Hehe..!

Alright, so far so great. So is life ♥ I love my current life much, I'm very contented by everything's happening now ♥

Leave your footprints behind, not your blardy knife

2011-10-19T02:12:00.007+08:00

Haha! It's daddy's birthday ♥ 18 October!! Well, actually yesterday to be exact :x I love you daddy!!!! ♥ Muacks! ^3^

Apparently I was woken up by a stupid call asking me to go to out. KNS, I wanna sleep sia! Hahaha… thn, reply all texts and nua on my bed for at least half an hour. Went to have lunch @ nex & bought birthday cake for daddy ♥ was suppose to meet doggie and/or sissy but didn't at last. Uhm, thn nothing much happen already. Till dinner! Went to celebrate daddy's birthday @ Din Tai Fung. Super yummy with all those dimsum! ^^ I love ém! was otp with crush, haven't had such fun with her otp for long! ^^
& honestly speaking I'm a horrible daughter, I actually forgotten to take out the birthday cake until daddy's asleep THN I've realized it… how terrible am I?! How can I forget such important thing?! Ugh, fml.
Was searching for my CCA cert. Practically turned my cardboard upside down -_- I found many things yet none is it!! Alright, those things i found ain't bringing good memories back. & those letters especially, fuck those memories. Thinking back, I'm really an idiot. A big idiotic stupid girl, ugh… these memories had been haunting me for a long time… since exams started… well, maybe somewhere earlier, I really can't stop thinkin of the past, honestly. Any methods of forgetting them?

FYI, I hate guys who cry. Really, they seem weak to me. I hate people crying infront of me, i don't know what to do! Though I agree that crying means that you've been strong for a long time & not means that you're weak. But, that's how I feel :/

Fatal step

2011-10-18T01:58:00.003+08:00

Had fun with HTF today! (; ♥ went to Kbox @ orchard international building, or something similar… Chris and Jojo is like boorreeeddddddddd! They're there wasting $8 To listen to us sing! :D future singer can! Hahaha!! The fun part's during dinner @ Pizza Hut. XinYin is totally unglam manzxc! The way she cut her pizza… OMGawd! Hahaha, everyone can't stop laughing (; came back home on time, guai Jovina~ ^^

Alright, apart from my family, the people I love the most are those 3 BFFs!! If you're wondering, look at those previous post I've posted few days back. I love them maximum ♥ hehe…!! I swear I'll do anything to cherish these rare friendships! Muacks!! ♥ ^3^ I love you like a love song babies ♥

~~I'm still missing you a little… but everything will be over soon, I really hope so…~~

Uncertain feelings

2011-10-17T03:04:00.003+08:00

Hehe… I'm super happy when I wokeup earlier on! Looking at those text crush, darling and doggie gave me totally made my day! ^^ I'm really glad that ive put a smile on their faces ♥ lurve euu peeps!

Dont mind me alright? I wanna rant, as usual.
I can't believe that I'm still actually holding up that hope, that little, little, little hope… oh wtf.

I don't know if somehow or rather you would read my blog, just want to let you know okay…
Seriously, stop giving my these little unrealistic hopes. You shouldn't even contact me few days back. Let me assume youre back with her alright? Just leave me alone. Stop giving me those thoughts of having feelings back for you. & that question you asked me, if you can continue calling me, well just let me answer you her : No. I don't want any of your numbers appearing on my phone. Better still, let's not be friends, I don't have the guts or courage to say all these crap to you. It's kind of a stupid way, but, let's just hope for the best that you'll be able to know it through this way. Like you've said, you'll respect my decision. (:

My beloved Darling ♥

2011-10-16T04:53:00.002+08:00

Darling ♥ Here's a post for you too! (;

Been 3 or 4 years since we're this close! I really can't believe that we've been such BFF for so long, it seems so like last week stuffs! I love you ♥ Hehe... I love those little talks & gossiping we have, before morning assembly and during recess. I want to thank you for being there for me all these times! Giving me advices and stuff (: Hearing my troubles and looking at my fugly look when i cry etc ><" Horrible isn't it? HAHA. I'm also sorry that i disappoint you many times, really, i truly am. You should know me >< I act without thinking much. My brain for display only! Hehe...

The Lord Jesus Christ gave us the definition of a true friend: "Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you" (John 15:13-15).
Pardon me if this is incorrect :x Adapted from a website.

My lil' doggie ♥

2011-10-16T04:38:00.004+08:00

Okay doggie, as promised. Here's a post for you!

Alright, here I am to talk about that doggie who's always there for me when i needed someone! First of all, I want to say I love you ♥ (: You should know what kind of love is that aye. Don't get the wrong idea. My kind of love will be the kind that you'll be giving me for your entire life, our true friendship (;

I wanna thank you for everything, really. Thanks for being there when I needed someone. Thanks for being an excellent listener, I know, I'm really a horrible person for one to talk with. Thanks for comforting me when I'm through my downs, especially that night, when you know that I've breakup with me. I really can't afford to lose such a faithful and loyal doggie (': I will sure treasure such a rare friendship with my life, dead serious!
Well, I want to apologise too... I'm really sorry for all those craps people are talking about, especially on Friday... Though i know that that guy loves to talk nonsense and craps, but what he say might be true. True as in, the words he speaks reflects on how people think of me, or rather us. How people thought we are connected might be not as simple as what we seem. I'm truly sorry, from the bottom of my heart. I really don't want any misunderstanding between you and her. I really afraid that it might happen, that one day, you two might quarrel because of this incident or so.
& don't be guilty that i might fail my science because of you blah blah! It's my fault too yea, i chose to talk & not listen :P Everyone will fail physics, trust me!

That's all for now doggie (: This is THE post as promised! ^^

My one and only Crush! ♥

2011-10-16T04:36:00.003+08:00

Crush ♥ This is a post for you!

I love you crush ♥ Forever and Always! Thanks for being there when i needed someone (; Thanks for giving me advices and such when i needed one! (: I love those times where we gossiped about random people and laughed out loud! Though we just got close this year, but I'm already loving you much ♥ Very very much.
I know currently you're undergoing much stress, but be just know that I'll be always here for you. Mark my words, sounds familiar aye? ^^ HAHAHA. I'll support your decision no matter what but really, don't regret any of your choices. We won't have many second chances. (: I don't know how terrible will my life be if there's no you for me all these times, I love you ♥ Remember that!

No matter what happen in the future, I'll never forget this memorable friendship of ours! Never ever ever!

IDGAF

2011-10-16T04:03:00.002+08:00

Alright, 4.03am. & I'm not asleep! Hehe...

I'm hungry now, H.U.N.G.R.Y.! Bad timing to be hungry... I'm soooooo boooooreeeddd! B.O.R.E.D.! No one is available for text/chat, all sleeping like a pig sia, what time only?! Tsktsk. Am I weird, like seriously, am I? Guess so, oh well...
Feeling so stupid now, I'm talking to myself yo. HAHAHA. Okay, I am weird.

Something wrong with me like seriously, I'm so not myself today! Aircon's finally working, YAY! Super cold now. Grrrr...!

Oh ya, & fuck the past, it's haunting me. I can't stop thinking about them. Go away luhh tolong! Please! ): I'm already stressed enough alright, stop adding on to my weight. Fuck. Maybe I shouldn't accept any of them, all of them seem so idiotic. How am I able to endure all those nonsense during those times? Betrayed, played with, over-concerning, sympathetic, and the recent one, idk... Sigh... IDGAF! Just leave me alone alright? Stop haunting me.

Remorseful

2011-10-14T01:18:00.002+08:00

Alright! Last paper later on!!! So excited can! Teehee…! I really hope, if possible, to score an A2 or A1 for F&N. I studied damn hard for it! Pray hard hard! ><#

So earlier on yesterday, practically slept like a pig. Didn't communicate much with family, Tsk. I promise that I'll do so after today's paper, I love euu! ♥ hehe… thn went to do some facial blah blah and mug again. That's my day. Kinda pathetic. I didn't even study so hard for PSLE, gosh..
Was otp with that baka, and I couldn't agree much with him. Serious! The feeling of getting pushed away even though you want to help so much. Hmm… yea, it sucks aye? Maybe that's why we're like this now. This is what I did to you. Oh well, shall feel remorseful from now on. But, life still goes on! That's something I hate. Nyayaya.
Aircon ain't workin I guess, damn warm can! Shall try to sleep (: goodnights world! Off to my Lalaland ♥

Blame

2011-10-13T00:44:00.001+08:00

Alright. Not a very good day though.. I feel so damn guilty! )':

Fairytale? Nah…

2011-10-10T01:17:00.002+08:00

Time check : 1:17am

I'm done mugging for mathematics! Nothing is getting in aye…
Okay, now my mood is spoilt by some horrendous tweet. Such a jerk, fuck you. I really don't understand, oh well… a leopard never changes it's spots. Flirt much, play much, act much. Knn, I seriously hate you. 31 days of Fucked up tales and lies. & the best thing is, you can act as if nothing happened. Guys are guys, no doubt of that. Heh.
Why am I so worked up? Ew…

Kiss goodbye

2011-10-08T00:46:00.002+08:00

“Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life,”
“No one wants to die, even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet, death is the destination we all share. ”
“Your time is limited, So don’t waste it living someone else’s life. … Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.”
Quoted certain points from Steve Jobs speech during an university graduating ceremony. For more, Click HERE. True enough aye..

Math P1 along with SS today, and somehow, I think P1 is easy. ROFL, dead manzxc! Confirm dead )':
Oh ya, & I can kiss goodbye to my humanities.
Dreamt of you, uhm… yea.. Well, I still do miss you once in a while. Hah, all these doesn't matters anymore aye, why bother? (:

It takes time… to adapt ofcourse

2011-10-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

Uhhuh, everything ended like it should be.
Foolish of me to not hear everyone's advice. Oh well, that's so me!

Okay, now I'm damn worried for my Maths can! I can remember the formulas this moment and forget them the next time… I hate my short-term memory useless brain. I hate my brain! :@ why can't I just forget about those upsetting stuffs? Dear brain, please please please be useful and remember relevant stuffs for a week starting from now!

~~I'm pretty much not used to this. My phone is so quiet, it totally speaks my current feelings…~~

Fugly

2011-10-03T01:25:00.002+08:00

Time check, 1:25am

Okay, Sunday wasn't a very pleasant day.. Dislike it much can!
It's like, due to exam stress etc, everyone is having relationship problem.. Doggie, crush, darling, Ryan… what's wrong with everything?! Life is so fair by making everyone's life unfair. Well done! *claps* seriously, just screw everything up. I wanna pass my EOY alright? I don't want to waste another year.. Why must all this irritating matters appear at this critical moment? Just fuck life, I hate reality. I hate waking up and lie to myself that it's all just a dream. I hate convincing myself that it's just temporary things that's happening in this point of time when it isn't.. I've really tried my best to improve things yet I just screw them up! Sometimes I feel like there's nobody there for me. Everytime when people is in need of help, they come looking for me, they expect me to listen and give them advices. & when I needed someone for my own, I couldn't find any of them, none.. Can you see how pathetic it is? Faking a smile is hard y'know? Faking it all the time, being strong infront of everyone is tiring… what else can I do besides being positive? I don't think I'll be able to make it till noe without being, or rather, faking all these.. Just fml.

A useless piece of trash

2011-10-02T01:13:00.000+08:00

I seriously feel fucking useless.. I always screw things up. Just fml. Wtf is wrong with me?!

A selfless decision

2011-10-01T00:55:00.003+08:00

不该拥有的，就该舍弃。。。
Hmm.. I think I'm hurting much of people around me..

I shouldn't be selfish aye, I shouldn't hold on and let you suffer...
Well, just maybe, I shall give in to everything and let go.. Should I?
Ugh, i hate everything happening now.
Okay, i shall now stop thinking and head to Lalaland~

Who am i kidding, seriously?

World of fantasy

2011-09-28T15:02:00.002+08:00

Bus home (: shall blog since I forgotten to bring my earphone..

For this whole day I've been thinking much about it. Really dk what to do! )': feel like crying but, who is willing to be there for me? Sigh, i really got no idea. I should be happy, why am I not?!
I really hate that coldness, i thought everything would change.. We're back to square one, hah.
Maybe what you people say is right....

Paparazzi

2011-09-28T00:00:00.003+08:00

Was otp with crush and doggie. Agree much with them, ESP with crush..

Who knows right? Hahaha, I've just got to trust and know it myself. Like what they say, follow your heart (:

Ignorant

2011-09-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

Seriously I'm feeling terrible.. Ugh. FML, I hate all this!

Should I help that idiot, or just him die on his own?
Should I spill out everything? Only doggie knows how I really feel )':
Well, kind of silly but I seriously love that doggie of mine! As a very very very extremely bestf ofcourse, I swear!

I'm kind of tired from what's all happening now. Enough of being strong, I'm done, with everything.

You're the one that taught me to love

2011-09-26T00:29:00.004+08:00

I hate those feelings, seriously.

Have been sleeping for almost one whole day today, pig much. Had dinner while watching F1. Was arguing with Ryan about who's the champion for this race & I've won ^^ we're pretty lame aye. Hahaha! & he take my jokes way too seriously -_-" no sense of humor, Tsk!
Pretty much slacked till 10pm before I started my homework. POA is a killer! I've forgotten everything and was staring at the paper thinking of my dear ♥ hehe.. Random much ><

Okay, now, I'm gonna watch either 90 days Time To Love or The World God Only Knows… Bbye!

2011-09-25T03:14:00.002+08:00

It's 3:15am! (:
Hehe… chatting with dear now! Gotta tank till the sun come out!

Went to watch "Contagion", kind of scary uh. Okay, I got nothing beteer to say anymore. Bye-bye.

Crap

2011-09-23T22:17:00.001+08:00

Okay, recently deleted all my blog post. I'm gonna start it new (;
Won't be as crappy as before & will be trying my best to post everyday!

Had a great day, practically sleeping for the whole school hour. Morning call someone during the last lesson of the day. Thn went to NEX to watch "Abduction", kiss scence much ._. & Taylor Launter's totally hawt ♥ Teehee...!
Was suppose to do homework an hour ago, but yea, I'm stuck here! (;

Enough of crapping, have been losing my temper recently..